Count down

I'm now on a count down!
Yesterday I got my confirmation in the mail that I'm having my op in a little under 4 weeks, so I'm counting down.
I've been to the chemist and bought my antiseptic wash and mouthwash, ready to scrub away any possible MRSA bugs that I may have lurking, as I don't want to get to my pre assessment swabs and be told I can't have the op cos I have the bug!
The Husband is off shopping tomorrow, with my pre op diet in hand to prepare for the low fat, low carb diet my nice antipodean dietitian has prescribed.
So I'm feeling quite positive and just a tiny bit petrified!
The thought of what happens after the op and how I'm going to feel is so way beyond where my brain can go right now, that when people ask " are you excited?" I find it hard to say yes.
I'm not excited about having an operation, having a general anaesthetic and spending a few weeks sore and recovering! I'm also not excited that I have to re-learn how and what to eat, that I have to remember to sip water slowly and at some point will have to stop drinking any fluid when I eat...it's going to be hard.
What I am excited about is my long term future and all the possibilities this surgery will open up for me....the chance to have a family, being less likely to need hip and knee replacements in the next 10 years, enjoying holidays and spending time with my family and friends without fear of being in places that are not fat friendly!
Simply being able to live my life and enjoy my life will give me all the excitement I need.