On Monday I started my pre op diet. I weighed myself and weighed in at 132.2kg which means that since I started this journey I have lost a few pounds however I looked at the scales and thought 'this is it, all things being well, I will never see that weight again'.
That was a very powerful feeling.
When I sit and think about the future, it is scary and exciting in equal measure. I have fear about the operation of course but I also have fear of change.
Being fat is what I am, it's who I am and has been my whole life, being fat defines me, how I react to others and how others react to me. The easy path is to stay as I am, to stay fat and in my comfort zone, the hard path is to loose weight and change everything....
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