Bored

I am bored. What an admission for a grown woman to make and one that brings to mind a stroppy teenager with floppy hair, spots and attitude!
But there it is, I am bored.
The bottom line of this boredom is that I am eating and eating and eating, mostly anything I can get my hands on...so as you can imagine, this is not good for the diet and does not bode well for post op when eating cos I'm bored is not an option.
What am I going to do then???

Its not like my life isn't full of stuff like work, work and oh yeah, work. Be it paid work or housework I seem to work and sleep, eat and work and sleep. Its hum drum and dull.

So what am I doing about it? well not a lot at the moment only moaning a lot to anyone willing to listen..i.e. you and the husband mostly, but I am thinking about doing something about it, and I guess that's a positive step?

I don't do much outside of work because I'm scared. Scared of new places, places that are not safe, that I don't know, that may not be 'fat friendly'. I'm scared of new people, people who will judge me, criticize me and make me feel bad. My self confidence is at an all time low and the result is that I am becoming insular, one dimensional and bored.

I am thinking about my future life, how I might feel and hoping that along with dropping weight, I will gain in confidence and find the strength to go out into the world and do stuff, see stuff and experience a bit of life, that doesn't involve hiding behind the husband or relying on old and trusted friends!

The possibilities are endless, but the truth is, that here and now, they also seem far, far away.
So in a bid to pull myself from this slump, I'm going to surf the web for local groups that I think may interest me and even if I cant find the courage to join any of them today, I'll keep them in my favourites until I do!