Nearly here

Well it's the night before and all my housework is done, my over night bag is packed and I feel a bit like I do before going on Holiday!
I'm full of anticipation, not excitement but trepidation and nerves. Even working in the business I still get the same nerves and anxieties that everyone gets and am worried about the anaesthetic, post op pain, sickness etc etc.
Right now though, I just want it over, so I can get along and deal with it. I feel I have waited enough and just want to get the operation done and dusted so I can focus on the next stage.
I'm due in hospital at midday and the operating list runs between 2 and 8 pm, I have everything crossed that its not an 8 o'clock op...
Family and friends have been lovely and strange in equal measure! I have had some lovely good luck cards and messages and others don't seem to be bothered at all! I suppose its such a big event in my life, but not in other peoples life and I should accept that not everyone thinks about people and their feelings the way I do. Still it hurts a bit.
So here I sit, waiting to have my last supper, mind whirling with thoughts about tonight, tomorrow and forever.
I so want this to be the answer I've been looking for, I need this to be the key to a fitter healthier me, I desperately want children and a healthy future with my family.
So keep your fingers, toes and if necessary eyes crossed that it all goes well and I'll be back with an update soon. xx