Hmmmmmmmmmm

I AM FAT, lets not beat around the bush here, with statistics like mine there's no denying it...I am fat!
I'm also unhappy.
Society has a certain image of fat people, you are either fat and lazy or fat and jolly, which one am I? well I suppose I'm fat and jolly-on the outside, but inside, I'm fat and unhappy, fat and tired, fat and many other things, but not jolly.

Having been a 'big girl' all my adult life, I have tried every diet, or weight loss pill, programme or potion out there. One in particular 'Lighterlife' worked a treat, I lost 6 stone in as many months.... I also nearly lost my husband. I had grown so miserable and unsociable that I had lost 'me', not to mention the fact that such rapid weight loss lead to me needing urgent surgery for gallstones caused by my shrinking so fast.

5 years on, I now weigh 2 stones more than when I started Lighterlife and find loosing weight even more ( if it is possible) difficult to achieve. I also have PCOS, which has come as no great surprise, but which does explain why shifting the bulge is so damn difficult!

I've been thinking long and hard about life, what I want, don't want, and where I want to be 5 or 10 years from now...I want to live, enjoy living and not carry the weight of my sister in law around on my back any more. My feet and knees are shot, my blood pressure is creeping up and I look about 10 years older than I am whilst feeling at least 20 years older..on a good day!

So what am I gonna do???

Well, working in medicine, I have a pretty good grasp of whats what in terms of weight loss surgery, I've done my research, I've looked at the BOSPA web site and I've read every detail of Fern Brittons story in any old tat mag going, so I now feel ready to seek professional surgical help with battling my demon weight issue...I'm taking the plunge...I'm seeking a gastric band!